headlights

if I'm not here
am I cowering
if I dont feel
like putting myself through it all

him bein' there's still a big deal
you can't stand in my shoes
be disappointed, sure I am
(but) this shit sure aint good for me

putting myself in the headlights
sure its sometimes good for me

putting myself in the headlights
sometimes just stupidity

if I'm not there
if a party's not a party for me
its not my fun that I'm hurting
if I let it pass all by me

if I just wanted a challenge
I know how to make me feel
so akward in my skin
the goals not always to make me reel